I am 15 years old and my dad has been an alcoholic ever sinse his father died and that was a year before I was born so I have had to put up with the excessive drinking all my life. My mum finally got the money to move out 2 years ago but his behavior still haunts me. I wish I had more information about the effects on the body because of alcohol and excessive smoking because I am so afraid that he might die. The psycological aspects of growing up with an alcoholic man has really taken it's tole on me and my family. It has always felt like a big family secret all my life so much that my grandad didn't know until we actually moved out, even now I feel so upset and so angry every time I think about him. I can't bring myself to tell my bestfriends. My brothers and sisters don't understand how I feel as I am the youngest and witnessed alot more than them at a younger age and as they abandoned us in the end. I find myself terrified of him when we go visit and he causes a new argument but it is not only with him it's also when other men raise their voice I just don't know what to do because I just don't want to stay like tis forever. Can anyone give me any useful advice please? It is very much apreciated.
Suggestion:
My advice I would go to a therapist or to my school counselor that can give me a list of therapist, because right now you are holding all the negative emotion in you, and its going to stay the same if not it will get a lot worse. I dont think you know how to get your mind off it, so I tink you need to talk to some one who is professional at these type of things also talk to some people who had to go through the same thing, that will help to.
Also you should do some yoga and meditate to ease your mind and body! : )
hope that kind of help
