we split about 3 weeks ago. we were together a year, and to be honest it felt more like we were best friends as opposed to going out. I do really miss him, and whilst I always knew I felt something for him, I never realised I loved him til he left. When we were together I didn't think he was the one, now he goes and I still know he's not but I end up convincing myself he's the one thats got away etc which is quite poor. Now problem ! I've had to cut him out cus I need time but all i want to do all day is talk to him which I can't do ! he's at work, and is not aloud his phone on him, (he moved a few days before we split, 300 miles away, no wonder we split lol, although he did cheat on me). I've taken this a million times worse than I ever thought I could, I've been very hot and cold, I'll be really nice and apologetic and so, desperate, if you like to keep him in my life. then I'll think why am I begging him, he cheated on me, he did everything wrong etc then I'll lose it and spam him with hate ! so i've been really hot and cold, I went too far and he ended up changing his number. i PANICKED !!! big time. I thought thats it. never seeing him again, he's out my life just like that. forever. after pleading through his friend I got him to ring me. we spoke it out, like normal and he was angry cus I had ago, I don't have his new number, and I don't want it cus it means I can't ring him. Is this healthy though, were gonna speak every sunday night, but i know im gonna find myself looking forwards to it. I do really miss him, more than I ever thought I would. But i can't ring him, he's gonna ring me and I know its gonna come, I'm gonna freak out and panic, in case he forgets etc and I know I am, but will this help me? I've never gone more than 2 days without talking to him and when I do i don't feel in love. It feels like im quitting smoking and there's someone holding my cigarette's for me saying I can have 1 once a week every sunday. Is that gonna make me stop wanting to smoke, or is it gonna make that 1 cigarette so awesome every week followed by a lot of pain ! thoughts please? sorry for the essay. I am improving and im not heartbroken anymore but still, I so nearly lost him and that would have killed me
Suggestion:
try talking to him and tell him you just want to be friends
