I have a pretty good idea of why I'm depressed, a lot of it having to do with when I was younger.
Heres my story:
I was born, life was good.
I was about 3 or 4, my grandpa died
I was about 6 or 7, my mom got diagnosed with brain cancer
I was 9, my mom passed away
I was 9-10, got made fun of every single day at school
I was 11, my dad had an aneurysm, I thought he was going to die, he didn't.
I was 12, people were still making fun of me at school everyday.
I was 13, Life was amazing, had a awesome bff, a great bf, and life was just great, until my bff's parents said we couldn't be friends anymore, and my bf dumped me and I found out we were going to be moving to a different state
I was 14, my dad had a heart attack, he lived and doctors told him he had to quit smoking and drinking, he stopped smoking, kept drinking.
I'm 15 now, I went through I stage where I let guys use me, and acted like a trollop. Lost all friends, got extremely shy, lost any self confidence I had left.
So now this is me, and I don't like who I've become. I'm going to be completely honest, I'm looking for someone to tell me "everything's gonna be okay" and to tell me that Im beautiful and perfect. Just please give me some advise. My life is so messed up.
Suggestion:
i too have been feeling depressed lately, and i know what it feels like to need to hear certain things. so out of the bottom of my heart and with the utmost sincerity i say these things to you now:
1. i care about you
2. these are all completely reasonable scenarios to be upset about, so dont ever think that these problems aren't really that big of a deal. they are, and you are absolutely justified in feeling depressed about them.
3. please remember, when it feels like things are horrible, they can always get worse. and if they do get worse, to the point where its rock bottom, know that it can only go up from there.
4. you are beautiful. you are perfect. those people who make fun of you will remain ignorant for the rest of their lives, and i truly feel sorry for them.
5. someday someone will see all of your imperfections as perfections, so dont mind all those who dont.
6. everything is going to be ok. you will get through this. you can and will be happy again.
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